Friday, January 27, 2017

Ezra

Ezra 1 - Have you ever faced an impossible situation?  One where there are just too many players and you are convinced that most of them are immovable.  Making your situation impossible.  Now… you don’t come right out and say that because you know “all things are possible for God” BUT, this particular situation depends on this one person that you are secretly convinced is really outside the circle of what God can work with.  Again, we would never admit that out loud to anyone, we keep that tucked deep down where it can’t taint our Christian facade. I remember praying for my husband, our marriage and thinking there is no way God is gonna be able to change this.  I was wrong.  He did. And for the record He did a fabulous job.  Some times there are situations that seem too far gone, too impossible, involve people that are just too difficult and we sit there wondering “How in the world, is God gonna be able to do anything with this situation or in this mess?”  But we can be encouraged by the opening verse of Ezra “…in order to fulfill the word of the Lord… the LORD moved the heart of Cyrus the King of Persia…”  You see despite what we think about the impossibility of our situation, God keeps His promises and He is ABLE to move the heart of anyone, anywhere to accomplish His will.   

Ezra 2 - Is not a chapter that stirs great emotion, names and numbers crowd it’s text. But I couldn’t help but see the theme of “returning” in the lists of people that returned from their captivity to rebuild their home.  At one time their ancestors had been lead out of captivity to a land promised to  a land flowing with milk and honey their’s for the taking. God moving in front of them in a cloud and pillar of fire. Now a smaller group returning to a broken city of rubble pillaged and loitered as a result of their disobedience and idolatry that remained under the control of the Persian Empire.  In one scenario they followed God in the other they returned to Him. But not all, some stayed in the land of their captivity, perhaps different things held them there. For some maybe they had found a false sense of comfort in their new surroundings, God in His mercy may have even allowed them to prosper there, why would they want to return to a broken Jerusalem?  Maybe others were ashamed to go back and face the destruction their choices had caused.  We can’t be sure, but their captivity, their exile was always intended to bring them back to God. Is God calling you back to Him today? 

Ezra 3 - In verse 3, we see this remnant of Jews beginning the work of rebuilding the temple. I was intrigued by the order in which they took for this task.  Despite their fear…did you hear that?  Even though they were afraid of the circumstances and enemies that surrounded them, they did.  Fear is a powerful tool of the enemy but it is just that, from the enemy.   When we are afraid it does us good to remember who Satan is when compared to who God is and move on.  But back to the order I mentioned before, the first thing they built was the Altar of God where they offered burnt sacrifices.  It was after this that they began working on the foundation of the Temple. Repentance and forgiveness must come first before the foundation can be laid.  I couldn't help but think about how Paul tells us that our bodies are the Temple of the Holy Spirit, but before He can begin the work in us there must first be repentance and forgiveness.  Does it seem like the work in you has come to a stop?  That you are stuck in the same place?  Might there be a need for repentance?  In verses 7-9, the supplies are collected and work begins to lay the foundation.  Paul tells us in Philippians 2 that we are to “work out” our salvation.  The blood of Jesus Christ saves us but there is an ongoing process of building the temple that takes our cooperation. Are you following the call of the Lord, carrying out His assignments? No doubt this would have been difficult work but instead of crashing on the couch we see them praising the Lord, giving thanks and singing. A few months ago while studying the final chapters of Psalms I learned that the Lord calls us to praise Him over and over again not because He needs it but because we need it.  Praise and thanksgiving keeps our eyes and hearts focused on Him.  It helps us to overcome our fears, to encourage us and to fill us. This chapter is a good recipe for walking with the Lord.  Repent, cooperate with God in your remodeling, do the work He is calling you to do and praise Him for the work He is doing in you. 


Ezra 4 - In the opening verse of Ezra 4 we see some willing helpers come the Jews way.  They are ready to roll up their sleeves and pitch in with the manual labor of rebuilding the Temple.  I can imagine with such a daunting task any help would be welcomed and appreciated.  But in vs.3 these would be helpers are shut down and turned away, with little room for misunderstanding. There is a really valuable lesson to be learned here. These would be helpers were Samaritans, descendants from the Jews of Israel (to the North, after the Israel and Judah split) who intermarried with those from other countries.  They claimed to be Jews while in reality they were not.  They claimed that like the Jews who returned from Babylon, they sought the same God and had been sacrificing to Him for sometime now.  On the surface, this sounds great.  Why are the words from High School Musical rushing to my mind, “We’re all in this together…”.   Remember what Jesus said in Matthew 10?  "Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves. But beware of men: for they will deliver you up to the councils, and they will scourge you in their synagogues.”  These returning Jews would need to be as “wise as the serpants”, and they were.  They recognized that these men were not who they said they were and they were not serving the same God.  They were wise enough to know that they should be cautious of men, wise enough to know the Word of God and His commands and because of this they were able to recognize that from their own statement we “have been sacrificing to him since the time of Esarhaddon, King of Assyria…” that they were not seeking the God of Israel at all.   They sacrificed with out a Temple and with the Priests appointed by God, all of which went against God’s commands.  In a situation where they cause have used the help, they took a step of faith and turned it down.  Choosing instead to trust that God had a better way to complete the  job ahead of them.  The Samaritans did not graciously accept their decision and return to their homes, they opposed them at every move, making their work difficult and filling the Jew with discouragement.  Which actually lead to the work stopping for 17 years. If was there, I can see myself doubting my decision to refuse the help.  Thinking it would have been better to let them help and just get the work done.  Surely, that would have been better than sitting here on a partially finished project.  But here’s the lesson, which goes back to a Psalm I recently studied, unless the Lord builds the house we labor in vain.  Jesus warned that he was sending us out as sheep in the midst of wolves.  Those Samaritans were not looking to help, they were crafty serpents and wolves seeking to destroy the Temple from with in. We do wise to follow the example of Zerubbabel and his friends as we build the living Temple of God. 1. Do not blindly accept help with the calling of God, not all are who they say they are. 2. Be as wise as the serpents but as harmless as doves. 3. Seek advise and consul from other believers that you trust and move forward in unity. Be ready to face opposition, there is great enmity between the serpent and the seed of the woman (Jesus), and when all seems to be going wrong and the work comes to a grinding halt, remember that the Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still. 

Ezra 5:1/Haggai 1:1-11 - The years ticked by, the Temple remained in ruins, the focus of the people turned from rebuilding the Temple to rebuilding their own homes.  Opposition lead to the work being halted,what started out as a good excuse, eventually lead to apathy. So what went wrong, just yesterday we were saying that if the Lord doesn’t build the house we labor in vain and that the Lord will fight for us we just need to be still.  Why are things different today? Their focus changed with the opposition, they stopped waiting on the Lord.   From the Lord’s point of view, it was time to build the Temple, when opposition hit He expected His people to keep their focus on Him, He would fight for them, He would provide everything they would need to do the work as long as they kept their focus on Him.  But they took the opportunity to say “Well it’s just not the right time, I might as well go build my own house.”  Then their focus continued to turn more & more towards self. They planted, ate, drank, clothed themselves, earned money but were never satisfied.  God had work to be done & a way for it to be done but no one was listening, they were all so wrapped up in their own stuff. So God sent an alarm clock to wake them up.   He "called for a drought on the fields and the mountains, on the grain, the new wine, the oil and whatever the ground produces, on men and cattle and on the labor of their hands.” This should have been a “heads up” for them, because this is exactly what he said he would do in DT 11:16-17, the gods they were worshipping in this case was the god of self.  And when they didn’t get the message he sent a messenger in the prophet Haggai.Is there a work that God is calling you to do today? (umm… yes!  At a minimum, He is always calling us to serve and worship Him) Have you run into opposition? Are you waiting on the Lord, keeping your eyes fixed on Him allowing Him to be a light unto your feet? Or have you let waiting on the Lord turn into apathy?  Let your focus drift elsewhere? Are you busy chasing your dream, while the Temple of God sits in ruins? “Now this is what the LORD Almighty says: 'Give careful thought to your ways'.”

Ezra 5:2-17 - I have been a christian for a long time, well over 4 decades.  You would think that I would have this down by now.  But I assure you… I do not.  I am finding that walking with God on this side of Heaven is a series of "screw ups” and “get ups”. I am beginning to understand what it means when it is said that David was a man after God’s own heart. David screwed up, a lot. BUT… David always prayed, got things right with God and got up, got back to what the Lord was calling him to do.  That’s an act of truth humility, being able to face your screw ups, admit that they are screw ups and take them to God.  Admit/confess, talk it out, get back to where you belong and pick up where you left off.  Holy living for us will never be perfect, but God doesn’t seek our perfection He seeks our confession, our returning to Him, our desire to right where we went wrong. Our pride can keep us from returning and confessing to God after our screw ups and time can made it seems even more difficult.  This is where David got things right.  The moment he realized that he had screwed up, he got up and returned to God, confessing and making things right.  He got right back to serving the Lord with out guilt on shame.  In Ezra 5, We see the remnant of Jews who returned to build the temple, the ones who let opposition bring their service to a halt and allowed a loss of focus to distract them, respond to the call of God through the prophet Haggai and resume the work God had called them to do.  And this time they are stronger, a second wave of opposition comes but they stay the course. Be encouraged today that when we screw up, God only wants us to get up and return to Him.  Praise God for His mercy today! 


Erza 6:1-12  Obedience is always followed by opposition. The Jewish remnant got back to work after 17 years of distraction and WHAM!  With out  hesitation there was someone questioning what they were doing and if they should be doing it. Tattenai thought it his place to find out just what was going on.  He wanted to know who authorized them to build the Temple and he want to know the names of the people involved.  Then he wrote a letter to King Darius making sure he was aware of this “thing” that was being done.  King Darius searched the archives and found that King Cyrus had given the order, but ya gotta love this.  Instead of saying, “Yep, it’s all good, they can build.”  He went further and said “Yep they can build and YOU are going to make sure they have everything they need to do AND if you don’t the punishment will be death.”  No matter what God is asking you do to today, do it.  Expect opposition, even from those you think should support you and press on.  God has your back and He will make a way.  That you can depend on. 

Ezra 6:13-22 The 2nd Temple is finished!! But from the time King Darius told Tattenai to bud out and fund the balance of the project it was another 4 years of hard work to finish the Temple. Vs. 14 says “So the elders of the Jews continued to build and prosper under the preaching of Haggai the prophet and Zechariah.”  I loved this reminder that when we have been given our assignment, we must not forsake the Word of God or the fellowship of His people in our excitement.  In our zealous to do what the Lord has called us to do, we can make the dangerous mistake of trying to do it in our own strength.  With so much to do, we don’t have time to read our Bible, study or go to church. We convince ourselves that we will get back to those things when the schedule eases up or one particular circumstance changes but soon we can find ourselves far from God buried in a work of our own that has no joy or effectiveness.  We know what the Lord is calling us to do, we have stepped out in obedience, overcome opposition but that does not mean the work is going to easy.  It will demand our time and diligent effort but we must remember that to continue and prosper in the work we must do it under the preaching and study of God’s Word.  Then when the work is finished we can celebrate with joy, “because the Lord will fill you with joy!"

Ezra 7 - The Temple in Jerusalem has been finished and now some 60 years has past and during that time, a young Jewish girl, named Esther has risen to a place of great influence in Babylon.  Being placed there “for such a time as this” God used her to save His people from the wicked plot of Haman. Pockets of Jews continue to make their way back to the land of Israel, including the skilled scribe of the Law, Ezra. Ezra is sent back with the same favor in which Zerubbabel & Jeshua returned (gold, silver, tax exemptions, and the promise to provide whatever is needed). Once again we see a secular King being willed by God’s almighty hand.  “Praise be to the LORD, the God of our Fathers, who has put it into the king’s heart to…”  Amen! and Amen!  But the Lord keeps bringing me back to verse 10.  “For Ezra had devoted himself to the study and observance of the Law of the Lord, and to teaching its decrees…”. Study, observe and teach the Word. Do you want to make a difference?  Do something that matters? Leave a legacy? I do.  I want to leave a huge eternal footprint when I leave this world, I want God to mold me into a vessel He can use and to fill me with His love and wisdom and I want to be poured out on a lost and angry generation.  But how? (I ask because I find that a loving response is rarely my first inclination) I must prepare and devote myself to the study of God’s Word, then I must walk it out every single day, do what it says and then share its power with others. Teach my kids, encourage a fellow believer, and share the life saving Gospel with those around me. The key is to be washing ourselves in the Word, soaking in it, getting all pruney in it, we simply can’t do it with out emptying ourselves of us and filling up with  His Word and His Spirit. Study, Do and Teach.  Let us devote ourselves to the cause of the Chris, today and everyday! 

Ezra 8 - The last verse of Ezra 7 says “Because the hand of the LORD my God was on me, I took courage and gathered leading men from Israel to go up with me.  Fast forward to Ezra 8:21 “I proclaimed a fast, so that we might humble ourselves before God and ask him for a safe journey… I was ashamed to ask the king for soldiers and horsemen to protect us from enemies on the road, because we had told the king, “The gracious hand of our God is on everyone, who looks to him, but his great anger is against all who forsake him.”  When God puts something on our hearts to do, we often times will respond with great zeal but as the time comes to step out in faith and go, things can start to look very different.  Our focus can shift from the big picture of what God has asked us to do, to the obstacles and dangers standing in our way. Fear can start to creep in and eventually overwhelm us.  Our minds become crowded with all the “What if’s”, every fight or flight synapsis starts firing! I speak from a wealth of experience, my head knows the truth but my heart often times goes screaming into the night! I suppose this makes me the queen of the plan B, the carefully thought out plan with multiple contingencies.  Not that planning etc, is a bad thing.  We can see in this chapter that Ezra was organized, meticulous and a skilled leader.  All that is great, but not what I am talking about.  I am talking about taking a walk through a dark alley where known criminals and bandits hang out with a million dollars strapped to my back.  I mean, come on, it was reasonable if not even responsible of Ezra to ask the king for protection.  But holy cow, I wanna be like this guy!  Instead, in his heart, he felt ashamed to ask the king.  That stands in mighty contrast to my heart, digging in my heals crying “no, no, no, no…. I am going to need massive security, armored car etc”.  Ezra’s heart pointed him to ask The King for protection. That is the kind of heart I want.  One so convinced, so sure that God will do what He said He was going to do, that it doesn’t freak out but instead humbles it’s self and fully trusts God. 

Ezra 9 - Studying the Bible is like riding a roller coaster, just when you things are all going up hill… WHAM everything comes crashing down.  This remnant of the Jews made their way back to Jerusalem, got the foundation of the Temple laid and then under the pressure of circumstances, gave up, got distracted and stopped working. God sends Haggai to get them refocused and back on task.  The temple is finished and everyone is praising and worshipping God. Sixty or so years pass and another group returns to Jerusalem, bringing a million dollars worth of gold and silver from Babylon, a 900 mile trip in only 4 months under the sole protection of the Lord! BUT… once they get all the supplies put away and counted they look around this holy city that the Lord so graciously allowed them to return to, after having been taken into captivity as a result of their idolatry and find that this small remnant of Jews were doing it again!  They were intermarrying with the nations around them. The exact same thing that had gotten them into trouble in the first place.  God told them to be separate, for a reason, because a little leaven leavens the whole lump. When Ezra saw what was going on he was appalled.  The girls and I were talking about this the other day.  We were talking about some show on TV, like many others that had pushed the “envelope” of what is acceptable content.  They were “appalled”.  So I asked them about some of the other content, soon they began to see that this show was packed with “appalling” content in the sight of God but we were slow to recognize it as such.  A little leaven had over time made us less and less sensitive to the sin.  The boundary will continue to move as we become more and more comfortable with what is being served up as entertainment. I encourage to look up Ezra’s prayer in Ezra 9 for yourself, spend some time reflecting on his attitude in this prayer. Ezra had a very real handle on who God is and who we are and what we deserve. He does not hope to simple escape the consequences of their sin but knows that they need to be utterly saved from their evil behavior. He doesn’t even ask anything of the Lord, but only presents himself as we all are - guilty. It is the true recognition of this quilt that will bring us to our knees before an Almighty God in heartbroken confession.

Ezra 10 - I must admit I drug my feet a bit coming into Ezra and now I find myself a bit sad having come to the end. As I studied this final chapter this morning that thing that really stood out to me was Ezra’s passion for his follow believers.  When he discovered that they had fallen into sin his response wasn't one of mild curiosity with an almost immediate shift back to his own life but one of great distress.  He tore his clothes, pulled his hair out, prayed, confessed, wept and threw himself down before the Lord. I have become increasingly aware that I have not fully grasped and power and privilege of prayer.  Too often my prayers are little more than “Dear Heavenly Father, Thank for today.  Please… In Jesus name, Amen.” Paul was another that seemed to really embrace the benefits of prayer and made mention that he prayed for his fellow believers daily. Confession and repentance should be an ongoing part of our prayer life. While there is no condemnation for those in Christ and while He has forgiven all our sins past and future, unconfessed sin has an affect on our relationship with God it holds us back and keeps us from Him.  We are more apt to just drop in for a quick drive-thru prayer vs. sitting laid out at his feet when we have unconfessed sin in our lives. Ezra knew that with out confession and repentance their relationship as a nation with God would be affected, it is the same with us today both on a personal and a national level.  I want to encourage you and MYSELF to confess any sin that is holding you back in your relationship with God, repent (turn and do His will) and embrace the power and privilege of prayer in praying for our fellow believers in this great nation of ours to confess and repent as well.  Confession ad repentance isn’t a one time thing, but an ongoing act vital to the quality of relationship fellowship with and submission to the Lord.

Monday, January 23, 2017

#WomensMarch

Hello my sweet girlies, it is already 9:25 AM on Monday and we should be well into our school day.  But I woke up exhausted with a terrible weight baring down on my shoulders.  This past Friday, we swore in a new President and to say that there are mixed reviews would be a gross understatement, mixed media reports, protestors destroying personal property in the name of democracy and shots being fired back and forth on social media quite literally makes me feel sick to my stomach.  In the midst of all of this, on Saturday there was a “Women’s March”, I am not sure of the total number of women that attended but I think it is safe to say the hundreds of thousands if not a million women were there. 


I have a deep passion for women.  That’s one of the main reasons I am so involved in women’s ministry at church.  There is a beautiful uniqueness in the last created being of God that intrigues me and causes me to want to serve and love on women with the truth of God’s word. 

So I was curious about this march, why was the news reporting that yarn stores were running out of pink yarn (probably a tie to breast cancer awareness I thought), what were they marching for or against?  So I read and looked at photos (umm... let’s just say the pink yarn was not about breast cancer)

Several themes...

1 - “Anti-Trump” 
2 - “Equal Rights” 
3 - “A Women’s Right to Choose” 

I listened to the speeches.  At first, I copied and pasted some of their words here but then thought better of it. Some of it was very upsetting.  It breaks my heart to see hundreds of thousands even millions of women crowding the streets of our great American cities, shaking their fist, screaming & littering, wearing pink vagina hats, holding signs with profanities, calling for rights they already have and being equally disrespectful to a man they are marching against for being disrespectful. 

Girls, I pray that I can teach you to raise above the noise and when called upon by the Lord to do something, do something that makes a positive difference in a way that encourages others to do right and builds one another up.  

You were created to be man’s helper, clothe yourself with strength and dignity.  The Lord is your strength and your shield, be strong and courageous, do not be afraid; do not be discouraged for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. When you open your mouth let it be with wisdom and teachings of kindness and when you need refuge remember that it can be found under His wings. Don’t worry about anything, instead, PRAY about everything and with thanksgiving present your requests to God, trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will direct your path.

You are beautiful, for you are fearfully and wonderfully made, remember that the Lord will fulfill His promises to you. Let all that you do but done in love and know in your heart that it is not fancy hair, gold jewelry, or fine clothes that make you beautiful.  True beauty comes from the inside, the beauty of a gentle and restful spirit never disappears and has great value to God. 


Be strong, be brave, be fearless for you are never alone and mightier than the waves of the sea is His great love for you. In Christ you have been brought to fullness and remember this is the moment for which you have been created. Declare over yourself, God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.  You are loved more than you could ever know by someone who died to know you, so let each morning be filled with His mercies and the word of his unfailing love. He knows the plan he has for you, and He will fight for you, you need only to be still! He finds you altogether beautiful, and He will never leave you or forsake you. Remember who you belong too. Be alert, stand firm in the faith, be women of courage, be strong and do everything in LOVE. 

I love you!! Mommy

Monday, November 7, 2016

Everything Really does Happen for a Reason


Hi there girlies,  

We currently live in the age of Blogs!  Just like this one, people from all walks of live sharing their thoughts and beliefs with whomever takes the time to stop by and read.  Recently, a friend of my shared an article she recently read on a blog.  The title of the blog was "Christians, stop saying everything happens for a reason.  After reading the article, I knew that I didn't share this woman's belief or agree with her thoughts but I went on with my day.  HOWEVER, I could not let go of it.  I kept thinking about my grieving friend, who no doubt had been hurt by the untimely and careless use of the phrase "Everything happens for a reason" but if the seed that some things happen outside of God's permission or without reason was to take root and grow, I knew that would give way to an overwhelming tree of anxiety and depression, not knowing what things to trust God with and wonder what terrible things might happen outside of His concern or control. So... I decided to send her an email with my thoughts on the subject, in hopes that she would find the true hope we have as Christians in Jesus.  I wanted to share it here, as a resourse when you are wrestling with a tragic situation in your own life and need to know where God is in it.   The original article by Christine Suhan is in black, my thoughts are in blue.

Hi Jenn,

I hope that you would allow me to speak to this article that you posted this morning.  I have copied and pasted the original article here and added some notes of my own.  I hope that you don’t mind me sharing...

Have you ever found yourself, in the midst of unimaginable grief, pain, heartache or despair, wondering how you are going to make it through another day? Wondering where your next breath is going to come from? Your world has crumbled beneath you and you are left feeling shattered, empty and hopeless.
And then a well meaning friend or family member comes along and drops the infamous “Everything happens for a reason” bomb. You smile kindly and nod—that’s all you can do to keep yourself from punching them in the face.
You can’t possibly imagine a reason for what just happened. 
The more you stew about a possible reason for your pain, the angrier you become. You try desperately to make sense of a situation that won’t ever make sense. You reach for answers but none come.

I certainly agree that telling someone who is grieving that “all things happen for a reason” is borderline cruel.  The Bible clearly tell us to weep with those who weep (Romans 12:15). But at the same time I do not believe this statement is untrue. 

I spent years searching for answers, trying to find reasons that would bring an end to my pain. I thought that if I could find the cause, I could treat the condition. But what I found through years of searching, experiencing and living is that often there is no reason for why tragedy has occurred.

We often want to understand why some things happen, but God’s Word tell us that His ways are not our ways (Is 55:8&9) and He instructs us to trust him, with all our hearts and to lean not on our own understanding (Prov 3:5-6).

Sometimes bad things happen for no reason other than we are human beings having a human experience. Pain, heartache, grief, loss, disease and death are inevitable parts of the human experience. 
I agree that all of these terrible things stem from the root of sin and the choice for knowledge over life in the garden. In God’s original design, the one where we choose to believe Him over the serpent, none of this was part of the plan. It was never part of His perfect will for our lives.  But with the choice, we ushered in a whole new set of circumstances and consequences of that choice. We made our choice and now we would have to live with it. BUT!!!  In stepped mercy and grace with a way to ultimately escape the spinning planet of death and pain. But I also very much believe that tragic things only happen when they can serve a very real and eternal purpose.

We hear people say “Life dealt me a crappy hand” as if pain and hardships are not the norm. We assume that life is supposed to be easy and when things don’t go our way, we feel like we have been wronged. Human beings seem to have an innate sense of entitlement. We think that we are owed a pain-free existence.
But the truth is that human beings are not exempt from the human experience. And struggle is an innate part of the human experience. None of us are exceptions to this rule. We all struggle. We all suffer. We all experience pain, heartache and loss. And sometimes, there’s just no reason other than we are human and pain is a part of the process.

I am struggling a bit with the repeated use of “human experience”, I would rather we just call a spade a spade.  We screwed up.  We traded fellowship and true intimacy with God for well... this.

I recently had a conversation with a friend who was struggling to find peace with “God’s plan” for her life including the recent death of a loved one.
“How could this possibly be God’s will?” she asked.
Here’s what I’ve come to know about God’s will:
God’s will is not the path we walk, but rather how we walk the path. 

1 Thessalonians 5:16-17 reveals God’s will for us:  Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.  Ugh! Everything?  Didn’t He mean to say just the good things???  How can we possibly give thanks to God for the tragic things? If there is no purpose in them, then we couldn’t.  There would be nothing to be thankful for, but God said to give thanks in everything, so... there must be something to give thanks for.  Because ALL things work together for good for THOSE WHO LOVE God. There is a purpose, there is a reason and somewhere in all the tragedy and grief,it’s a good one. One we can hope in. 

God’s plan is never for someone to have cancer. God’s will is not for an innocent child to be brutally murdered. God’s will is not for a teenage girl to be raped. God’s will is not chronic pain, illness, disability or death.
God’s will is not an event that happens to us, it’s how we respond to what happens. 
God’s will for us is to walk with Him through the cancer. Through the abuse. Through the death. Through the illness. God’s will is for us to draw close to him in the midst of pain. God’s will is for us to use our painful life events to carry his message of hope, grace, forgiveness and mercy. 
God’s plan was never for pain to be part of the human experience. His plan was for us to live in peace and harmony with Him. The human experience became painful when sin entered the world. Our own free will weaved threads of tragedy, loss, heartache and pain into the human experience.


God is not responsible for our pain. Not in the sense that He in any way caused it.  But I do believe that God is sovereign over all things and He allows it. We are not responsible for our pain. Some pain we are very much responsible for, choices that we make can lead to great heart wrenching pain.  What happened in the Garden of Eden is responsible for the human condition. Death was ushered in as a result of Adam and Eve’s choice which represented the same choice that each of us would have made.  So I think we too bear responsibility for what we invited into our existence.  And the human condition is hard wired for pain and suffering. God is not causing us to hurt. He is hurting with us. What we do with our hurt is what matters. How we handle tragedy is what brings purpose into our pain. Oh, I hope not.  I certainly do not have the strength to muster up the “right” response to my tragedy in order to bring purpose to it.  I think I will pass this credit onto God.  I believe that it is through the power of His Holy Spirit at work in us, that brings one purpose to the pain and suffering we experience.  Genesis 50:20 says “but as for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive.  God will bring purpose from our pain, we needn't weigh ourselves down with trying to figure out how to do that. 

There’s hardly ever a justifiable reason for the bad things that happen in life. Tragic loss is not laced with inherent specs of good. I used to get so mad when people would say, “You can find good in every situation.” That’s just not true. There was nothing good about being raped. There is no good in murder or abuse. We have to create the good. We have to choose to respond in a way that brings good into an impossible situation. We have to choose to give purpose and meaning to our suffering.
Not everything happens for a reason. But in everything that happens, there can be a reason to bring hope and healing to others. God can use our pain for a greater good if we choose to let Him in. 

Bible scholar G. Campbell Morgan said “In the divine dealing with us, there is no mistake, no lapse. Nothing has been permitted which has not been made to serve the highest purpose.”  That causes me to sigh with great relief. 

I read this article this morning and it has followed me everywhere I went today, I could not shake it. I even wondered “Geez, Cija,  what’s the big deal?”   It’s comforting, I suppose, to think “sometimes bad things just happen and God had nothing to do with them.”  But if that seed is allowed to take root and grow it becomes a giant tree of anxiety and despair thinking that things, great big giant, devastating things could happen without God being a part of it in some way.  Ultimately, that is terrifying.  The Apostle Paul said we are hard pressed on every side but not crushed.  Why? because God is there, smack dab in the middle of this messed up, sin-filled world, taking every terrible thing that happens and using it for a very specific God filled purpose.  He NEVER ever wastes our tears.  He never allows anything to happen to us that He can’t use for His glory and for eternal purposes. 

We will suffer, Jesus himself said, “In this world, you will have trouble, but take heart!  I have overcome the world.”  We have hope... this is not the end of the story, He stepped into the mess and laid out a beautiful plan of redemption and restoration.  Lamentations 3:37 says “Who can speak and have it happen if the Lord has not decreed it?”

Jenn, hear my heart. My heart aches with your’s every time I look at my twins and wonder how I could bare life without one of them.  Tragic, unspeakable things have happened in your life. I know that your heart still aches over the loss of your boy and for anyone to carelessly throw “everything happens for a reason” out as some sort of demand for you to move on is absolutely wrong. As I said before, we are to mourn with those who mourn and rejoice with those who rejoice. But I truly believe that the foundation to rest on is in knowing that his death was not in vain, all his days ordained for him before one of them came to be (Ps 139:16). God knew in His omniscient power exactly when his temporary life in this broken world would end, that He chose you to be his mom and that He is holding him in heaven until the two of you can be reunited again.  This was not a mistake or a meaningless event, while it was never part of God’s pre-garden plan, there is comfort in knowing that all things come from God, the Lord gives and the Lord  takes away.  He is bigger and more powerful than death... he truly will work ALL things together for good for THOSE WHO BELIEVE.  You will spend eternity with your son because of GOD’S AMAZING GRACE. You can KNOW that God will take what Satan meant for evil and HE WILL USE IT FOR GOOD, you may never know what that good is on this side of heaven but you can rest in the assurance that your pain and your tears and your heartache will not be wasted. 

Sweet girl...You do not have to muster up the right attitude in the midst of your tragedy.  Jesus came to bind up the brokenhearted, to trade your ashes for beauty, to give you the oil of joy instead of mourning and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.  God’s comfort and his good in your tragedy are not dependent on how well you handle it... He is faithful to do all that he promised he would do, you put your focus on Him, trust in Him and lean not on your own understanding and He will do the rest,  including giving you the strength to put one foot in front of the other. 


Friday, October 23, 2015

Be Holy for I am Holy


Hi Girlies,

I am doing a Bible study on holiness right now and wanted to share some thoughts with you.

I screwed up, big time. And afterwards I was kicking myself for not being "holy".  My first impulse was to definitely NOT talk to God about it, I ran and hide just like Adam and Eve.  I mean there was no way that He would want to see or talk to me after what I had done and on the other hand I didn't deserve to see of talk to Him and I certainly could not take His disapproving look. 


But as I laid there in bed, shaming myself.  I could hear His voice calling for me "Cija, where are you?"  Of course, He knew exactly where I was, hunkered under my covers listening to the guilt and shame being fed to me by the enemy.   God knew where I was but He wanted ME
to know where I was and who I was listening too. 

There God was walking through the garden of my heart, calling out to me.  He wasn't casting me aside because of my sin, He was reminding me that He already covered it.  The blood that He shed on the cross, washed me whiter than snow... all of my sins were forgiven, the one's in past, the sin last night and the ones in my future. 

And so... it got me to thinking.  "Be holy because I am Holy".  "Be holy in all your behavior."  Ack!  Did you see what I just did!!  How can I be holy! I screw up all the time, and I didn't just make a mistake, I knew that I shouldn't do what I did and I chose willfully and defiantly to do it anyway!  

Perhaps you have felt like me... how in the world will I ever be holy?   If so,  I wanted to come and stand before you, recently spattered and stained with sin and let you know something.  Thank the Almighty God of Abraham, Isaac & Jacob and HIs glorious son, Jesus Christ my Savior that it is not about me and my performance. He is perfectly aware that I am a going to screw up. 

You see, I am holy, because HE IS HOLY!  and He lives in me.  My responsibility is not to be perfect so that I will make Him look good.  He is already good and perfect!  My responsibility is to offer myself as a living sacrifice and HE will transform me by the renewing of my mind and then use me to bring Himself glory.   I can't not tell how much relief I find in knowing that He, who has started the work in me is faithful to complete it!  

I want to share this Consecration Prayer by Tammie Head with you. It's a wonderful picture of what it looks like to offer yourself up a living sacrifice.

God, I offer my mind to you today, May every thought, every intention, and every motive be in constant agreement with Your Holiness.  Please forgive me for every way I have sinned a against You with my mind.  Please wash my mind and purify it.  Empower me to fix my mind on you today. I desire my mind to be set apart for your glory. 

God, I offer my eyes to you today.  May everything I choose as entertainment be in agreement with Your holiness.  Your Word says in James 4:4 that "friendship with the world is hostility toward God" and "whoever wants to be the world's friend becomes God's enemy."  Please foregive me for making friend with the world and not setting my sights on You.  Wash my eyes and purify them.  Please empower me to fix my eyes on You today.  I desire my eyes be set apart for Your glory. 

God, I offer You my ears today.  May everything I listen to be in agreement with your holiness.  Please forgive me for listening to gossip, slander, and entertainment that builds up the world's ways in me.  I also ask for your forgiveness for not listening to Your Voice in obedience.  Please wash my ears and purify them.  Empower me to fix my ears on You today.  I want my ears set apart for your glory.

God, I offer my mouth to you today.  May every word I speak or do not speak and everything I eat or do not ear reflect your holiness  Forgive me for every way I have used my mouth as a tool of unrighteousness.  Please purify my mouth.  Empower me to fix my mouth on You today.  Set my mouth apart for Your glory. 

God, I offer my heart to you today.  May my every feeling, desire and emotional need come into agreement with Your holiness.  Forgive me for seeking fulfillment in temporary satisfactions. Please wash my heart and purify it.  Empower me to fix my heart on You today.  I want my heart set apart for Your glory. 

God, I offer my hands to You today.  May everything I touch or handle show forth Your holiness.  Forgive me for using my hands as took of unrighteousness or withholding service to other.  Please wash my hands and purify them.  Empower me to fix my hands on You to day.  I want my hands set apart for your glory. 

God , I offer my feet to You today.  May every step I take demonstrate your holiness.  Forgive me for not planting my feet on your truth and for shrinking back from stepping out with you.  Please wash my feet and purify them.  Empower me to fix my feet on you today.  Please set my feet apart for your glory. 

Don't set out today with the goal of being good & perfect, start out the day by being holy.  Take time to set yourself apart for God's service. 

Love you, sweet girlies! Mommy

Thursday, July 17, 2014

There is no way I have false teachings in my life... Oh crap! 1


I am a lifer.  One of those christians that has spent their entire life in the church.  Sundays.  Wednesdays. Private christian education. Youth group.  You name it I have been there, done that.  I have had doctrine poured into and over me as long as I can remember.  I’m grateful. 

So imagine my surprise when I discovered that I had brought false teachings into my own home and was even using them to teach my children.  I mean, if anyone was qualified to hear and recognize false teachings it would be me. Ask me what is off in the many popular religions out there and I can tell you, no problem.  The Apostle Paul and John, the Apostle that penned the book of I John would be proud.  Or would they?

Honestly, I should have know better. The enemy is crafty2, he doesn’t walk around with a poster board of Buddha trying to trip up us “lifers”!  Oh no, he holds out Jesus, slightly modified, carefully disguised as to not call any attention to the false teachings he presenting and the way he is misrepresenting the Gospel.3 

In fact, it can sound so inviting.  An invitation to be more spiritually mature. But, Paul said in Galatians, “I am astonished that you are so quickly deserting the one who called you by the grace of Christ and you are turning to a different gospel, which is really no gospel at all.  Our first thought is to think, “My my, what were those Galatians up too? A different gospel?  That sounds serious, I would never.” 

Really? Turns out this lifer was very much a Galatian, turning to a different gospel.  For the people in a Galatia, it was trying to earn God’s grace.  Yep, you read that right.  They weren’t worshipping idols, they were simply working hard to follow all the rules so that God would approve of them... love them.  Oh, we could spend some time here, but not today.  

So , what is the Gospel.  We must first know what it is, so that we can recognize if there is a “different gospel” in our lives.  Let’s look at I Corinthians 15:1-4 Now, brothers, I want to remind you of the gospel I preached to you, which you received and on which you have taken your stand.  By this gospel you are saved, if you hold firmly to the word I preached to you.  Otherwise, you have believed in vain.  For what I received I passed on to you as of first importance; that Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures, that he was buried, that he was raised on the third day according to the Scriptures.


I wonder if maybe some of you turned your “reading speed” to turbo through those verses.  Oh I get it, I’ve heard that so many times before I can just skip over that or race through it.  Like I said, “been there, done that.”  

Let me cut to the chase.  Jesus warns us “Watch out that no one deceives you.”4 I am not one to ruffle feathers, I like everyone to just be happy; but it was the courage, of a godly woman, to say something, that showed me the false teachings that I had allowed in to my own home. That was about 8 months ago, and since then I have seen over and over again how this one little book has permeated so many christian homes. 5 In fact, when my dad died, a man from the church came to encourage and pray with us.  In his hand he held a leather bond book with gold leaf pages, no doubt a Bible.  But, when he opened it, it was not the word of God it was this same book, a different gospel.  Hear me when I say, I know this man was truly believing that he was bringing the word of God to us, and that is the part that makes me shutter.  Satan is so crafty, he has wormed his way into our homes, into our churches and onto our Facebook pages and we don’t even know it!

Sometime ago, I read a book6 that helped me to uncover some of the false teachings that are in our church today.  I have to admit as I started reading I was very confused so many of the things they talked about made me say “What on earth is wrong with that? That’s sounds like a good thing.”  Things like prayer journaling7, listening, automatic writing, contemplative prayer8, getting off by yourself in the woods and experiencing God, going on a spiritual quest, seeking God’s presence9 etc. I mean come on, all those things sound awesome!  I want to grow, be more, have more and these all sound like really awesome ways to get there.  But I was desperate for truth and so I prayed for wisdom and discernment, I grabbed a journal and pen and wrote down all my questions and things that confused me and I went in skeptical, how could there possibly be anything wrong with any one of these things.  But here is what I found at the end of that exercise.  All of these things sound amazing and super spiritual and must haves for the mature christian, but they are really just man’s attempts to reach God and that is absolutely a different gospel.  

What was the Gospel again? Christ died for our sins, he was buried and raised on the third day.  We can not reach God, it is by his mind boggling grace that he reaches down out of heaven to rescue us. 

I can almost hear some of you saying, “Geez, Cija.  What is the big deal? I know all that, I am just trying to grow, have a deeper relationship with God. I think maybe you are over reacting.”  Yes, I thought that too.  But it turns out I am not. 
There is a really good example of men trying to reach God in Genesis 11:4 “Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we can make a name for ourselves.”  But, God would have none of it. Why? Because we can not reach Him! It was a deception!  Satan was fooling them into thinking that they could do anything to save themselves or reach some higher knowledge of God on their own.  It’s a lie, we can do nothing on our own! Only he can rescue us! Only he can draw us closer to him. It was a false gospel then and it’s a false gospel now.

I get it.  I want a closer and deeper relationship too.  But there is only one way, and that one way is Jesus, through the power of the Holy Spirit at work in us.  He is the author and finisher of our faith10.

The Gospel is simple. Jesus died for our sins, he was buried and raised on the third day.  Now we watch 11 and wait 12 for Him to return and while we wait we are to go into all the world and preach the Good News, the Gospel, and  follow the example of the early church in Acts 2, devoting ourselves to biblical teaching, fellowship, communion and to prayer. This is how you grow. 
Colossians 1:9 - 14 For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding.  And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light.  For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.  

I am grateful for the woman who had the courage to say something, it would be be wrong of me to not turn around and do the same for the people I love and care about.  XOXO Cija
1 Sorry to many episodes of “Reba” and “Everyone Loves Raymond”
2 I Peter 5:8, Gensis 3:1
3 Genesis 3:1 Did God really say…
4 Matthew 24:4
5 “Jesus Calling” by Sarah Young.  I know! WHAT? No way!  I read it the whole thing, bought the children’s version and read it to my kids, and bought several other copies for my friends!  I did not believe it, there is no way!!  But, I encourage you to take time to read the self penned forward in her book and how she came to write it. One of the most frightening statements to me was “I knew that God communicated with me through the Bible, but I yearned for more.” What? More than the Word of God? Did he forget something??
6 Castles in the Sand by Carolyn A. Greene
7 Prayer Journaling/Listening/Automatic Writing/- this is not writing your prayers in a journal.  “In your journal, you write down your prayer or question to God. Then, focusing on Jesus, you listen for the Holy Spirit’s answer, and write down what you believe He is saying. I find that the Holy Spirit’s ‘voice’ usually comes as a series of light, gentle impressions. I need to tune in to these to hear what He is saying.”  Umm... all the answers to need are in the Bible. 
8 Contemplative Prayer - this is not thinking while praying.  Contemplative prayer begins with “centering prayer” a meditative practice where the practitioner focuses on a word and repeats that word over and over for the duration of the exercise. The purpose is to clear one’s mind of outside concerns so that God’s voice may be more easily heard. After the centering prayer, the practitioner is to sit still, listen for direct guidance from God, and feel His presence. Although this might sound like an innocent exercise, this type of prayer has no scriptural support whatsoever. Prayer is comprehendible communication with God, not an esoteric, mystical meditation. www.gotquestions.org
9 Seeking God’s presence is not necessary, he is omnipresent and said “I will never leave you!”
10 Hebrews 12:2
11 gregoreo - to watch, give strict attention to, be cautious
12 qavah - to wait, look for, hope, expect


Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Autumn Rains… Pools of Blessings


Hello my girlies,

So I only have a couple of minutes before we start homeschooling (YES! I said homeschooling, I will leave that for another day), but I had to share.

Since starting homeschooling and teaching history, I have stumbled a little bit in my faith.  Nothing major just a small little seed of "is this all real?"  It has shook me to my core, I don't want any doubt and so I have been praying, reading my Bible asking the Lord to reassure me that He is there and all I believe is true and real.

Yesterday I was with my mom, she was so discouraged looking back over her life, thinking her life was difficult and that it shouldn't have been and because it was meant that she had done things wrong that caused her life to be difficult.  I knew that Satan was messing with her, I tried to encourage her remind her that Jesus said this life would be difficult.  But this morning, God showed up!  It was as if my Bible study for today was just for her!  And through the process He strengthened my faith.

Here is the email I sent to my mom this morning:

God never ceases to amaze me.  This morning as I was doing my quiet time and was reminded of your comment yesterday in the car "Life shouldn't be so difficult and I allowed it to happen".  A lie that Satan has been whispering in your ear for far too long, as if to convince you that if you had lived your life differently life wouldn't have been so hard.  

"Poppycock!"

Jesus assures of that in this life will will have MANY troubles. 

So, this morning I am making my way through my study of the old testament patriarchs and I find myself in Egypt with Joseph and his elderly father, Jacob.  Joseph is introducing his dad, Jacob, to Pharaoh when Pharaoh asks how old Jacob is and he replies "The years of my pilgrimage are a hundred and thirty.  My years have been few and difficult and they do not equal the years of the pilgrimage of my fathers."  Few... difficult and don't equal.  First off, Jacob knew that this life was merely a pilgrimage to where he belongs but he felt as though his life didn't measure up to his father or grandfather's.  It had been difficult and there were so many things he could have done differently.  Sound like anyone you know?!?!?  So here is what my Bible Study said  "we can place all our years of difficulty on the altar of God as a gift for Him to turn into benefit and beauty.  We can invite God to fill in the space where we feel we didn't measure up."  Now who do you suppose orchestrated that I would be on this page of this part of the study on this day, the day after I had this conversation with you!  GOD!  This is the message he wants you to hear.  

Psalms 84 is wonderful... but focus in on verses 5 & 6.  "Blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage.  As they pass through the Valley of Baca (weeping) they make it a place of springs; the autumn rains also cover it with pools (blessings). 
Mom, set you heart on pilgrimage, you are here for a purpose (His purpose) to share his comfort and gospel until your last breath, as you pass through this life (the valley of weeping) make it a place of springs (expectant JOY) and bask in the autumn rains that will cover the land of your life with pools of blessing. Stop looking back allow God to fill the space where you feel you didn't measure up and go forward with expectant joy doing the good works that He has laid out before you.  


I suspect those hearing aids will do more than improve your quality of life or make it possible for you and I to talk on the phone, they will give you an important tool in doing all that God has left for you to do.  Image spending your days on the phone, praying with those who need encouragement, sharing the gospel with those He will bring across your path.  Satan is holding you prisoner in silence, making sure he is the only voice you can hear clearly, whispering lies of destruction.  It's time to take your life back, get back on your pilgrimage with expectant joy and watch the Lord use the rain to pour out pools of blessing on your life!