The Relationship...

Hi Girls, Just another writing from a few years ago.

"I was reading in John about the crucifixion the other night, when I finished, I thought, why is it I read that like it's not a big deal, I wonder why it doesn’t move me like it should. After journaling about it for awhile, I believe the Holy Spirit gave me the following thoughts. Ya know how when you hear about a kid drowning on the news and you think "oh how terrible, I can't image" and then you go right back to cleaning... but when you hear about a church member's child that has drowned you spend more time pondering what they must be going thru, you might send a card or make a meal for the family. But if your best friend's child drowned you would get in your car, sob the whole way over there, and cry out to God to help your friend. You would hold her, help her make phone calls, help her plan the service, sit by her at the funeral, and be with her in the weeks and months ahead, you would call her on birthdays and holidays to support her in her grief. Now, what if it was your child that drowned... your whole life would be devastated, you would be sick with intense grief; and yet the theme of this story is always the same... a child drowned. Why did one impact you more than another... it's the relationship. The closer the relationship the more it moved you. And then I realized how much more relationship I have to experience with God and Jesus, this is the closest I have ever been to God and Jesus and yet I realize how much more there is to experience in my relationship with him. I as grow closer to him, I can expect the story of the crucifixion to move me more and more."